Inspired by David Jay’s ‘The SCAR Project’, and my own experience, the confronting idea of a self portrait amounted. These images reflect my journey through self development after an existential decision and committing to a prophylactic mastectomy and breast reconstruction. I was proactively diverting a fate my own mother, among others, didn’t have the chance to, but I was terrified. My spiritual strength came from a distraction, and the challenge of physically running a marathon 3 weeks prior to the day I cut off my natural breasts.
These self portraits were taken 2 months after my breast reconstruction. The removal of my breasts challenged many of my vulnerabilities as a woman, a mother, and a lover. I hope to provide a transcendence of fear by illuminating the rawness of my reality, and illustrating a contentedness in decision and the subsequent relief and hope for a full life. My daughters will grow into adulthood with a mother who won’t die prematurely from breast cancer.